I was born in a family of doctors who were very strict so I grew up in an oppressive environment. I was overwhelmed by my parents’ pressure and restricted myself from doing what I wanted to do. I was known as a good and obedient child, but I was jealous of my friends who were able to play outside. My dream was to escape my dark world and become free.
When I was in high school, my uncle opened his own clinic after years of dreaming about it, only to die the next year. I was shocked that his life was cut off short despite him realizing his goal after years of hard work. This incident made me wonder whether I will ever become free and live the life I want to live.
However, when I became a college student, I became independent from my parents and enjoyed the freedom by going on trips and joining the football team as a manager.
When I was a student, I wanted to become a pediatrician because I liked children. However, when I was an intern, I met a woman with colon cancer who was close to me in age. I saw that she had to prioritize her family and worried about them rather than focusing on her treatment. This experience made me want to support patients to live as they truly are, and not just provide treatments for their illness. I joined the internal medicine department to treat digestive cancer.
The patients that I treated were mostly in their 40’s and 50’s. Many of them had sacrificed themselves to their families and work. So when they became ill, they often became emotional from the shock.
Some people get anxious about the future when they are disclosed about their illness, shocked that it has happened to them, get angry or sad and unable to accept it, regret their past, or lose their sense of meaning in life.
Many patients also worry about the physical changes that take place, their relationships with family members, and financial issues that makes it difficult for them to focus on their treatment.
I became mentally and physically exhausted from working late and trying to meet with as many patients as possible in order to relieve their stress. But doing this on top of office work was overwhelming and I had to leave the university hospital after getting ill.
After that, I found out about the Kanjyo Counselor corporation when I was studying psychology and psychiatry and took a training course to become a counselor while working at a hospital.
I realized that I was sacrificing myself for others too. I knew that my life was not what I wanted it to look like, but I believed that through helping others, I would be rewarded. In reality, I was struggling everyday.
I had a lot of emotional blocks too. Negative emotions were making it hard for me to live freely.
Now I work at Hetero Clinic in Kamakura, as a Kanjyo Counselor as well as give medical advice. I aim to help create a world where no matter who you are, you are able to live up to your true potential.
My hobby is diving, surfing, traveling, singing and eating good food. I am currently into baking with rice flour.
I am also a yoga instructor.